Free Fallin

I am sorry to break many hearts, but, no this is not a blog about
Tom Petty's hit song 'Free Fallin'
its about a conversation i had tonight with my mother over
our spectacular grilled steak, grilled vegetables, and corn on
the cob dinner.

To summarize the discussion..

It all started when we got onto the tangent of finding yourself, and who you
really are, what you really like, what you really want to do in
your life time.

She told me growing up with eight siblings, having a serious high
school sweet heart, and developing a friendship with a very
influential friend it was hard for her to do these things. She was too caught up in
family, friends, and boyfriends to make her own decisions, do things
for herself and discover the woman she was meant to be. She was so influenced by
others that she admitted, that had her best friend not decided to be
a nurse, than she too would probably not have gone into medical field and become
a nurse as well.

My Mother told me it was not until she began to break off ties, and became independent, that
she began to discover who she really was. She told me tonight that I must free fall. I need
to break away and fall on my own for the time being in order to discover the woman I am, the woman God has intended me to be. She warned me that like free falling, it WILL be scary at times, but its a rush and invigorating as well.

So tonight going into my second year of college in less than 48 hours, i make the jump. Frightening this fall will be, but simultaneously adventurous and worth it in the end. Wish me luck :]

robot love

i think i might purchase this t-shirt

but i must discuss with a fellow robot lover first.

''I was born by the river in a little tent
Oh and just like the river I've been running ever since
It's been a long, a long time coming
But I know a change gonna come, oh yes it will''
- Sam Cooke

He's a new favorite i found hiding in my itunes library.
Check him out :]

Patience

"How long before I get in
Before it starts before I begin
How long before you decide
Before I know what it feels like
Where to, where do I go?
If you never try then you'll never know
How long do I have to climb
Up on the side of this mountain of mine"

The first verse of this song seems to accurately describe
my emotions/ thoughts i have running through
my head tonight.

How long? Where? When? Who?

Patience is a virtue.
Patience is something i need to practice.
I have a hard time being patient when it comes to the future.
When your curious, excited, yet fearful all at the same time,
its hard to wait for the outcome. I suppose the 'waiting' / the ride would be
obsolete if one already knew what was to come.

I don't know what the future
has in store for me, i suppose i have my whole life to practice
this patience thing.

Jack

Time came a-creepin'
Oh and time's a loaded gun
Every road is a ray of light
It goes o-o-on
Time only can lead you on
Still it's such a beautiful night

Oh love don't let me go

I am one of the luckiest.

I love youu :]

Wake and Blog

So iv gotten into this new routine, that has left little space for my blogging.
I was asked by my beloved jack, why i had stopped blogging, i ranted and raved, 'when do
i have time?!' My turned into a nine to five job, i am nannying for a family this summer. I told my mom, after she says 'it will prepare you for motherhood', that its keeping me further away from it! Dont get me wrong, i like the job, i just am in that much less of a hurry to grow up.

Anywho i am thinkin since life has gotten so busy, work, eat, sleep, that i will begin waking and blogging on my saturdays and sundays.. We will see how this works out.

For a quick update, today is the 54th Talbot Street Art Fair. Jack and I plan on going :]

Last night we went to a drive in theatre, for free!

At $18 a carload we started looking for takers, of course we were unsuccessful because his crowd i suppose you could say lives simply, living day to day at the skate parks, refusing to grow up and get jobs, [i say this in the nicest way of course] in a way i envy their ability to find satisfaction regardless their lack in financial stability. I suppose they are the kind that will suffer the least in this 'recession'. Anywhooo, we eventually found a couple to go with us, or i should say they found us! And because we drove in without being seen, we didnt end up having to pay.. :]
The night ended up being a.... magical one :] In all ways, with the top down the stars sparkled above us. We saw Up and Night At the Museum Battle at the Smithsonian, those in themselves magical movies. The night was perfect, a night i was most def. in need of.

In conclusion, i need to start blogging more, now i have too much to blog about and i cant cram it all in one one day.

To do list..

Who follows them? I dont know the answer to that one.. but i sure as heck never seems to quite follow through with them.. But i decided to make one.. so maybe i can accomplish atleast one thing on the list that i would have forgotten to do had i not listed it as one of the things on my to do list..ha. So here goes nothing...

1. Read Read Read
2. Make the friendship bracelets i told my friends i would make them
3. Write my friends in distant places
4. Learn to play the piano
5. Actually organize my room top to bottom
6. Paint my room
7. Paint my bathroom
8. Pray
9. Journal
10. Make working out a daily routine
11. Read the Twilight series.. [i need the first book though, anyone got it?]
12. Consistantly pray that i have a good roommate next year [feel free to pray for me]
13. Take pictures
14. Organize my itunes library
15. GO TO LOLLAPALOOZA